I didn't realise how long it had been since I last wrote. Things have been busy with the PhD. I am getting on better with people in the group now and have been able to go into the office to work. Yes sometimes the anxiety has me jumping around in my seat wanting to run away. Other times I can sit and work a bit. The medication change has left me very urgey generally. I think coming off the Wellbutrin may have been a mistake but we'll see. My temper has been a lot worse and more things have been thrown than usual. Apparently there are 3 people ahead of me on the waiting list for the therapy service now but that could still mean a long wait. I had a good supervision session last week and was able to be open about my BPD Dx with my supervisor which was nice because I didn't feel judged or ashamed. I didn't just blurt it out he asked what I had been diagnosed with as we were talking about people doing research on areas relevant to their personal experience. The previous week I had been feeling very down about pretty much everything so it shows it never lasts forever. I have been self medicating with: Diet coke