Twats

I saw the disability mentor at my Uni, the on for people with mental health problems. At one point she was said 'Yes because at some point it would be good if you could do that or you'll be at a disadvantage' which kinda pissed me off because it's like, no shit, that's why you call it disability, you don't just turn it on and off to suit your career goals. I went to the group for students with anxiety/ depression and to be honest some of the new people there are just twats. Ok one in particular. They talk over other people and start going on about completely irrelevent things. And the group leader doesn't really keep it on track which is more annoying, so I might stop going. I'm fed up of it. People have a huge fit if they feel discriminated against and yet come in and bring all this prejudice with them like they can't add it up - you think that person you saw is weird for doing x thing and you're talking about them perjoratively and yet.... And I find it so fucking hard to work in my office because it's so quiet but I want to try and integrate myself into the department as much as possible and not hide away at home as much as the temptation is there so I'm persevering with going in for a bit. The people are nice it's not that it's just the whole thing of feeling so self conscious every time I go in or out, not really wanting to use the kitchen incase I run into anyone, feelign uncomfortable eating and drinking in there blah blah blah. I enjoy the run home, it's the main motivation at the moment. The anti-anxiety meds obviously aren't doing that much - they help me sleep a bit but apart from that they aren't really breaking the back of it. I see the stupid craza psychiatrist next month so we'll see. I have also been using this scar reduction tape - as prescribed by the dermatologist who thought it was totally appropriate to adjust my bra to get a better photo of my scars. He didn't explain any of the possible side effects - it's a steroid tape so they are quite alarmig when you first read them and as usual the G{P is so fuckign inept sorting the prescrption is a nightmare. I keep beig told to request it as a repeat prescritpion then getting it back with NOT ON REPEAT written in big letters all over it. I keep asking for several rolls to be prescribed at once as one roll lasts less then a week - do they do this? Do they fuck. I have been self medicating with: My OMM backpack.