Meds meds

After my e-mails and near hysterical meeting with the CPN last week she has worked some magic behind the scenes and the psychiatrist is going to write to my GP to start the anti-anxiety med. Hopefully that will get done quickly. I have an awesome cold. I saw egregious friend a couple of nights ago. She has decided people who go into clinical psychology tend to do so for the wrong self-serving reasons and tend to be screwed up. Her application for ClinPsych was rejected btw. I keep saying things to her like 'I don't know why some people have to bring others down to feel good about themselves' but it doesn't seem to sink in. I don't know why I stay in contact, except I don't have that many options to keep shutting things down. I don't mean friends - just life and experiencing it, if I run from everything that is annoying or confusing or scary I'd do nothing. I just try and be nice to her and ignore the huge swings between extreme irritation and sympathy. I guess this is one part of the BPD Dx I do relate to a lot. The complete 180's from adoring to hating folk. I try not to act on either. I have been self medicating with: Olbas Oil